- I messed up this week while making a comment on Facebook. I know. I should have known better. It’s a trap. Speak nothing but rainbows, unicorns, and butterflies on social media. I’d made a statement about the law, and someone I didn’t know responded, “Make sure you know what the laws are before you comment next time.”
- I found this funny ironic and also irritating. I’d originally commented respectfully and this person hadn’t. I felt I had a fairly good grasp on the topic especially since this in particular issue has to do with issues my police officer husband has to know and deal with within our state. I commented back with a link to the US law code, and prefaced it with “Hahaha!” I deleted it not 30 seconds later realizing that was probably not the WWJD remark I should leave. In my pride, I’d felt validated. Within about 15 seconds, guilt set in and I quickly scolded myself for not being a good example. I removed it. Too late, the retorts were already flying in. The damage of my response had been done and I’d destroyed any chance of setting any Godly example or even educating that I may have had. That in itself hurt. I apologized, though I know it was not enough to undo my poor judgement. This is embarrassing to admit, but I obviously needed the humbling.
- Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For me to think higher of myself than I aught too, is as fruitless and dangerous as the blind leading the blind. My recognition of my need for God, is the only thing keeping my head above water. If I let go of that, I’m gonna drown just like everyone else who isn’t gripping the hand of God.
- When pride cometh, then cometh shame: but with the lowly is wisdom.
After I apologized, I did feel shame. If I’d remembered the value of the soul I’d been responding to, I’d have chosen to respond without the laughter. Jesus came here and set an example to put others first, to live as a servant and not as a king.
I turned on the radio the other day, and the speaker said, “The way up is the way down and the way down is the way up.” He was speaking about humility. It really caught my attention; unfortunately not enough for me to avoid tripping over myself in this situation.
- Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.
Unfortunately self validation is heavily pushed in this society all the time. Everyone wants recognition for their life choices and accomplishments but they can’t stand when they don’t feel the recognition of the acceptance of society as a whole. That is a hard thing to fight when it’s hammered into our brains. God teaches us to serve others, respond with patience and grace, and direct praise to Him. That is where I failed. My response was not patience and grace.
When pride cometh, then cometh shame: but with the lowly is wisdom.
God is asking something completely differently than what is natural. He doesn’t want me to validate myself, He wants me to do things His way and shine His light. That should be first priority. If I’d responded with just the law code, it would have gotten my point across in a non offensive manner. That would have been wisdom.
James 4: 10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.
I want to be better and respond better even if it’s not responding at all. This speaks to me right now. I’m working on myself all the time. I try and fail sometimes but I’m still trying.
- Seek ye the LORD, all ye meek of the earth, which have wrought his judgment; seek righteousness, seek meekness: it may be ye shall be hid in the day of the LORD’S anger.
I pray that I will be meek enough that the anger of God shall pass over me at the time judgement is deemed. This song touches my heart. To think that the one being worthy of the treatment of a king, came here and voluntarily donned this human skin; chose to take on humility for us and pay our debt for sin. It just makes me love Him all the more. A King who leads a Kingdom by living as a servant. I love you each. Huge hugs.
Audrey Assad- Humble